Something Blue

MysticAngel

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 20:34:31 GMT

I dont know what to think right now... I mean.. I just been at my dads and it was kinda fun. I burned a new cd with songs from Evanescence and Sarah McLachlan. It is lovely songs. I specially love Sarah McLachlan's Angel. It's a wonderful song. Here is the lyric:

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

It's a great song huh? I totally love it! It's soo great. I love it. Right now Im listening to Evanescence's Hello. It's also a great song as well.

Well tomorrow is a new day at school. I cant wait for the day after tomorrow (not the movie), then Im helping to organize a consert at school to the celebration of school. I cant wait on that either. At dad's I've been trying to get down 'Once More, With Feeling' but I couldnt get it to work because it just said no slots avalablie. And it sucks. And soon Im going to stop typing because I seem to have lost my spelling ablility.

My sister cant get into Hollywood Heat, where she's currently moderating so she's a wreck. Sorta. Im working around at CtP, trying to get my Buffy board working and people to register, and then it's the wonderful MysticWicks! :D I love that place. :D

Well... I post more tomorrow. See ya! :D

Sucking

Thu, 20 May 2004 22:35:45 GMT

Is it just me that finds that the world is sucking? I mean generally. Im just totally drained again.. And a part of me is like: Great Im getting my period again or something but seriously. Another part is like getting worried if I get cancer or something because I sit so much by the computer. And another part just finds me horribley unattractive while another can like see one kissing everyone. And then I mean EVERYONE. It's driving me up the wall. Being a teenager sucks.

And today it was the OC which didnt make me feel any better either. Or Charmed... Or Buffy... God gracious, I really want a boyfriend... Well well... Hormones I guess.

And then the more I write the more pissed I get for some reason. Wicca just aint working for me right now and I love that religion so much and just the thought that I might out grow it is horrible. I love just everything about it but I cant get it to work.

I getting afraid as well. I hate being at the internet but I cant stop. I honestly have no such thing as a life. Im 100% serious! Im not having not even a shadow of a life. Im breathing but you know what I mean. Im not LIVING life anymore. Im just riding the wave seeing the world pass me by.

Tomorrow Im going to my dad's I dont know what to think or expect. I mean I havent met him since two weeks ago and a few days ago he got to know that his mother wont live to next year or something like that... Im a total mess. And Im frozen emotionally as well. I havent cried in ages which makes me worried. I havent cried on any furial or anything... Im a totally wreck. Seriously. I hate it.

Now Im a writer

Mon, 17 May 2004 18:56:34 GMT

I just thought I would share the good news - I have become a writer on TV shows for this swedish TV show site! There's a few others but as it looks Im going to take care of BtVS information and characters, and then we are going to write collums and stuff for the site! Wonderful huh?

Im also writing for a virtal season 7 for Charmed.... :)

Now I see that I've been blind

Sun, 16 May 2004 20:16:38 GMT

Today I woke up about 10.30 and it is sunshine outside. I had a good nights sleep. I went to bed about 10 PM yesterday night so it's alright.

Here are some updates on the plot my character and a two other people's characters are doing [Eowyn is my character, Ky is another dude's character and Mari is the third]:

- Eowyn turned to her demonic part, Fyre and she wanted Ky to suffer so she started to ruin for him
- At first everyone thinks it's just because she's jealous of Ky's new girlfriend Mari, but they soon realize it's deeper than that
- After a few meetings and fights Fyre reaveals the hiddeous truth that she was pregnant two years ago with Ky's baby but Ky made her loose it.
- After Ky breaking down Fyre comforts him, after turning back to her more human self, Eowyn.

That's about how long it has come so far. There will be more though. So start watching! ;)

I have also added a little adward thing: This week's friend. Which Mari has won!!!!! Congratulations love! I hope everything works out for you good!

My mom and my little sister has gone away and they will be back around dinner time today and that means that Sofie and I have the house to ourselves. Which means: ALIAS ;)

My sis and I are real Alias freaks. There's no doubt about it. But my pal Nabil just thinks that buying the season 1 Alias DVD was a waste of money ;)

I spoke to Nabil yesterday as well, which is really rare since he lives in Chicago and he goes up like 7 hours after me and 7 hours aint that little.

We have seen the episodes: The Prophecy, Q&A and The Masquarde. Then it's Snowman left and then it's a change of DVD. :)

And I have just joined a cool new board: Imaginary Boards - it's about Buffy and please put Dark Deception as your refferal.

And now to another big question: on CTP am I going to change username to Dark Deception? Please comment about that.

Have a great day!
Love Em

I love the way you love me

Sat, 15 May 2004 17:15:33 GMT

Today I have done nothing much. I have made a header and an icon for Mari. It's on Mandy Moore and it's a pink theme. She's going to have the cutest blog ever.

Later today Im going to see Alias. Because Sofie and I, we have bought season 1 on DVD and Im going to see The Box Part 1. It's where Quentin Tarantino is a special guest star and when a gang attacks SD-6 and Sydney and Jack needs to save SD-6. And it's the first mention of 'The Man' aka Sydney's KGB agent mother Irina aka Laura Bristow.

Tomorrow my mother is going away so Sofie and I will be alone in the house... Strangely I cant wait.

Since I made an entry last I have quite a lot of boards... A few of them are TruCalling, Hogwarts Castle, Charmed-Boards and The OC Boards. I need to cut down on my internet traffic.

And as for Ky and mine perfect plot on FGB it's going fine. Although that dude needs to get his butt over there and post a reaction to my previous post before I can reply.

I have a new style here which I call 'Version 4: Eliza Dushku'

That's about it today

Dont forget to check out my LiveJournal's new style

Hey!

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 14:43:50 GMT

I havent written for a few days. Maybe two or three. That is quite not so much but it's still much. you know what I mean?

Yesterday on Buffy it was the big war and it was really cool how all the students fought and how they got Harmony and Percy and all them in on it. It was cute. And I have now days a love/hate relationship towards Angel. I love him because... he's just bloody brilliant. And I hate him for leaving Buffy. Well, a girl cant do everything right?

Today I was suppose to be with a friend but she went to the city and bought shoes instead. Well... It's not like I hate her for it but it was a shame really. Well there's a tomorrow I guess. And then I have started to read 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' And Im on chapter 7 the something of Mrs Weasey. Im reading it on english until my beloved little sister has read the swedish one. I have read the english before, the past summer I read it on the day of my birthday and I got through it and read it through on the second day. In the english version there's 670 pages or something... In the swedish it's 1000 pages!! That's not little dont you think.

I have joined 3 more fanlistings: One Faith fanlisting (she has her moments so I joined), one Lover's Walk fanlisting and one Season 3 Charmed fanlisting so here's the stats:

- 3 Alias related fanlistings
- 13 Buffy related fanlistings
- 1 music related fanlisting
- 1 Sabrina fanlisting
- 3 Moulin Rouge fanlistings
- 1 book related fanlisting

= 22 fanlistings

That's not little fanlistings. I feel like checking around for more. I'll do that.

And today I have also re searched more on Wicca and I have posted like 34 posts today on Mystic Wicks

I dont know what more to write so...

Blow Harry Potter on Alias

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 21:12:35 GMT

Today is just one of those filler days.

I have been on Hogwarts Castle and posted 3 chapters of my fan fiction 'Harry Potter and the Song of the Siren'. It's about Harry and he comes back to Hogwarts after Sirius' death and Hermione and Ron are worried about him and Harry is in love with a girl who seem to have her eyes set on Malfoy. I think it's going to turn out really great. And I forgot - Ron's cousin is defence against Dark arts teacher.

And now I got 24 hours to solve this horrible FGB/ADA thing which I just find annoying. I dont understand what's happening and I dont have time for it. Tomorrow it's Sunday and I start school on Monday. *anything but yay* And I have made a few things today you can check it out here. And now Im going to let you see this news thing which I found pretty cute:

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Melissa George recieves a blow on the set of 'Alias'

Australian Woman's Day, on stands now, has a one page article about Melissa George reciving a blow from David Anders (sorry if I spelt that wrong, the actor who plays "Sark") in a fight scene on the set of Alias.

I don't have the article in front of at the moment because my mom buys the magazine and is getting it later, and no need buying it twice, so sorry that I can't type the article up now. Sorry if this has been posted, I didn't see it.

Here's some details I can recall from the article:

Lauren and Sark were exchanging blows and David missed and got Melissa on the right side of her face. She fell to the ground and co stars Jennifer Garner and Michael Vartan rushed to her side and something about medical attention. She apparently called her husband straight away, and he arrived on teh scene soon after.

Pictures show Melissa clutching an ice pack to her cheek with her husband (Claudio, is it?) there with her.

The only other detail I remember is that David bought her flowers and made up a silly song and sang it for the rest of the day.
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That David knows how to take care of his ladies... *joke* I would have David hit me anytime ;-)

Well... that's about it.

Have a nice day!
Love Em

Love my insides

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 18:20:27 GMT

Today's song:

Skater Boy - Avril Lavigne
He was a boy, she was a girl
Can I make it anymore obvious?

He was a punk,she did ballet
What more can I say?

He wanted her, she'd never tell
secretly she wanted him as well.

But all of her friends stuck up their nose
they had a problem with his baggy clothes.

He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enough for her
She had a pretty face, but her head was up in space
she needed to come back down to earth.

five years from now, she sits at home
feeding her baby
she's all alone

she turns on tv
guess who she sees
skater boy rockin' up MTV.

she calls up her friends,they already know
and they've all got tickets to see his show

she tags along and stands in the crowd
looks up at the man that she turned down.

He was a skater boy,she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enough for her
now he's a super star
slammin' on his guitar
does your pretty face see what hes worth
sorry girl but you missed out
well tough luck that boys mine now

we are more than just good friends
this is how the story ends

too bad that you couldn't see
see the man that boy could be

there is more that meets the eye
I see the soul that is inside

He's just a boy, and i'm just a girl
can I make it anymore obvious?

we are in love, haven't you heard
how we rock each others' world

I'm with the skater boy, I said see ya later boy
i'll be back stage after the show
i'll be at a studio
singing the song we wrote
about a girl you used to know

Today's quote:

DRUSILLA: Miss Edith needs her tea.
SPIKE: C'mere, poodle.
DRUSILLA: Do you love my insides? The parts you can't see?
SPIKE: Eyeballs to entrails, my sweet.

Drusilla is so sweet... and insain.

Today I've seen 'the League' it was cool. I liked it but I hated Sean Connery's character. But I loved Petra Wilson's and Stuart Townsend's characters. They were sweet.

Well I dont know what more to write so...

The Prom, Bangel Love

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 17:54:29 GMT

Hej.

Here is another entry of me.

I have changed my AIM screen name (acctually I changed accont) to <b>sarkenagnet</B>. It's a total Alias screen name. Sarken is one of the two shorties for Sark and Lauren. Agent says itself.

Today I have a total Bangel mood as well and I made a banner:

What do you think? Post it in the comment thing because I really would like to know.

Today I had a really long coversation with Luna-Moon (from AliasBoards) on AIM. We talked first about Alias, then about Wicca (which we both have as a religion) and then about the christian religion. And as a finnish we talked about my father. It became really... not a happy subject since my dad has hit me and I feel really bad going there. He hit us when we were small so it's nothing recent. We talked really long. Maybe an hour or something. She's from Germany so we have pretty much the same time zone and it was nice talking to a girl from another country for once when the most people I talk to are either from sweden or are guys from another country with a nuts timezone so we can just talk for like 20 minutes. That aint so much fun. We had a lot in common even though she is a few years older then me. Im born '89 and I think she was born '87. But I normally have more incommon with "older" people then the ones in my own age.

Today I heard on the radio that summer kids had more happiness then the ones born in winter. But I dont know about that. I have so many problems. Like the one with my father and all that. And my mom had read this article about teenagers who commit suicide. And one of the main things are correct on me. But but...

Today's Buffy episode were such a cry episode. I loved it! It was fabilous! Buffy and Angel broke up because they realized that they had no future in the long run. And it was so sad, I couldnt stop crying. And she got this embrella were it said: "Buffy Summer - classprotector" and I started to cry for real when Angel showed up. It was really really really sweet and I just... it was so lovely!

Now I'll stop typing. Have a nice day!

Today's quote:

Buffy: I think horrible is still coming. Right now, it's worse. Right now, I'm just trying to keep from dying. (her face contorts in pain)

Willow: Oh Buffy.

Buffy leans over into Willow's lap and starts sobbing.

Buffy: I can't breathe, Will. I feel like I can't breathe.

Spiderman

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 19:21:15 GMT

13th April

Hello there.

I have seen Spiderman today, it was awsome. Kristen Dunst was great. But Tobey... He was alright. The movie reminded me a lot of Superman. A boy living with his relatives that wasnt his parents, having a crush on a girl, getting superpowers and fighting evil. What do you think? Am I off the track of am I on it? Well well...

My health is really good today but I need a shower or two. I have seen Buffy today as well... It was cool. I hated the whole episode but it wasnt really bad. It was just because of that the Mayor said to Angel about his and Buffy's relationship, that will make him move from Sunnydale.

Im currently writing a fan fiction where Angel leaves and Buffy she goes like down and she starts drinking and does drugs and all that.

And I have a new blog as well. Really much like this one called Diary of a princess (press the name if you want to get there, it's going in a pop up so you can read the rest of the entry as well ;-) )

At Charmed-Boards there's this hard mission from Jess (in a RPG) where we are going to fetch a bell or something and we cant use teleportation. Interesting how that is going to be.

Today's Lyric
Never Ever - All Saints
A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate

I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel righ

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy,
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right x4

You can tell me to my face,
You can tell me on the phone,
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Uh, You can write it in a letter, bab
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe

Today's quote:

[while checking out Leo]
Phoebe: My Santa how you've changed.
[pause]
Phoebe: Those must be the finest glutes in the entire city.
Piper: In the entire state.
Phoebe: In all the land.
Piper: I saw him first.
Phoebe: Uh-uh.
Piper: Uh-huh.
Phoebe: Uh-uh.
Piper: Uh-huh.
Phoebe: Huh?
Piper: Huh.
Phoebe: Awh.

Have a great day loved ones! - and all you others! :-)

Love, Em